“The Noise Around Me, But It's My Love Grounds Me!”

“The Noise Around Me, But It's Love That's Grounds Me!” 

“The Noise Around Me when there's only Jennie in my mind, The Love That Grounds Me”

I’ve watched fake friends disappear, fake family disappear, but this is another level, they call it gang stalking...

I’ve watched silent watchers sit on my pages, taking everything in but offering nothing back.

I’ve watched people who barely knew us try to control the narrative of our life together.

I’m tired.

I’m hurt.

I’m angry.

I'm heartbroken,

I’m still grieving the woman who is my world.

But here’s the truth that none of them can erase:

Jennie loved me.

Jennie lived with me.

Jennie built over 11 years of her life with me.

Jennie chose me.

No amount of hacking, deleting, or rewriting documents will ever change that.

The boys have been fantastic all the way through this, even though they to had threats and people trying to manipulate them too, they know where the love is, that's our home and not with the outside nose, and considering I have been there for them all for over a decade, spending quality time with them, watching them grow up, giving them all the love that Jennie gave to us all, these are our circle, blood or not, they know we both love them dearly, now that's all matters to me, not the noise.

Me and Jennie would have been getting married this year when they were 17, again complications with family, the reason we left it so long, we said, this year we will just do it, with or without them, unfortunately, we never did fulfil that dream, we put others first before ourselves, and they're still trying to take Jens dreams away now Jen isn't here, Its degusting. 

My heart stays in the circle of love that Jennie and our home and our circle created.

This blog is where I speak freely.

This is where Jens memory stays safe.

This is where our story lives, not in the twisted versions others try to push, not in the silence of people who only watch, not in the noise of online gangs who thrive on chaos and hacked us into silence!

I’m writing this because I need to breathe.

I’m writing this because Jennie deserves love and respect.

I’m writing this because of the interference, the hacking, the manipulation, it’s real, and it’s exhausting.

But I’m still here.

I’m still fighting for Jen, for us, for the life we built that no one else has the right to even touch.

If you’re here reading this, thank you.

If you’ve supported me, spoken to me, checked in, or simply cared, thank you.

If you’re only here to watch, judge, or twist, you won’t find what you’re looking for.

This space is for our love, and for Jennie memories, my writing will always be about Jennie, everything I do will be about Jennie, no I wont get over it.

Thank you for reading this, I wish you healing.